the pieces of my life

I’ve been getting grief from my father (hi, Peter!) for not blogging. I’m not completely sure why I’m not blogging, but I haven’t. Part of it is that I am writing, just not for you. I’ve been working steadily away on my novel. I’m at a rough place in it at the moment, not sure if it’s all gelling together. I need to just plug away at it. Part of it is also that I’ve lost that snark factor. Now that I have kids, I feel like I can’t let my bitch out. It’s one thing to alienate my friends; it’s something else to alienate my kids’ friends. But I go through this blogging crisis about once a year and the fact is that it’s been eight years I’ve been doing this, which is longer than I’ve done almost anything else in my life. The only thing more consistent in my life is Adam, as I’ve been with him for almost ten years. But I’ve never lived in a single place for eight years. I’ve never had a job for eight years. Eight years is something to be reckoned with, so here I am.

And right now is my writing time. I should be working on my novel. But my darling daughter pulled the old “I’m healthy but now you can’t send me to school” trick. Last night the boy was trying to get out of homework. Pie had just gotten home from a playdate and was cranky, but nothing out of the ordinary. But the boy! Oh the moaning, the groaning. “I can’t do my homework! My head hurts! I’m sick!” I feel his forehead.

“You’re fine,” I tell him.

“Nooooo! I’m sick! Take my temperature.”

Which I dutifully do. And he’s a lovely 98.4. Pie is standing there. “Shall we take your temperature, too, while I’m standing here?”

She agrees and I take her temperature. 102.5. I do a double take and take her and his temperature three more times, certain something is wrong with the thermometer. But no, she’s sick. Just doesn’t seem like it other than a cold.

So now I’m sitting on the couch as she overdoses on TV. We started with High School Musical: “The girl with the lipstick and the sparkly shirt, who’s hanging with the boy? That’s who I am. What’s her name? Gabriella? That’s who I am. I the character of her and the person of her [meaning Vanessa Hudgens].” Now we’re on to Berenstain Bears. She’s anxious to go out–because of course she’s had no fever all morning–but I can’t in these panic-y swine flu times take her anywhere where there might be children, so she’s won the TV lottery for today. Given Pie’s Law of Health, she’ll be chipper and happy all day, till about 5 p.m. when her fever is guaranteed to return.

In the meantime, I can leave you with just a few of the things that have been keeping me away from the blog:

For the first time, we built a sukkah. We have our lovely remodeled house, with an ample backyard and a place to store the sukkah in the off-season. So it was time. “What size should we get?” Adam asked me.

I looked over the Sukkah Project web site. “I think we should get the easy snap together kind.”

“That’s ridiculous,” I was told. “It has to be made with lumber. Or else you’re just cheating. What size?”

“Um, 8 by 12 should be fine.”

“No, too small.”

“Okay, 12 by 10.”

So what does he order? 12 by 16. We need a bigger table to fill it, but it was nice as we hosted Shabbat and two kid-oriented meals in the sukkah. I’d show you pictures of Adam and Doodles building the sukkah, but somehow I’ve misplaced all my September photos.

The rain finally took a long enough break to get to apple picking. We went nice and early on Columbus Day to beat the crowd. We arrive, and I go to buy the small bag to fill. “We’ll fill that in no time. We need a bigger bag,” Adam insists (are you seeing a theme here?). So we get the bigger bag. Only Pie loses interests and she and Adam wonder off leaving me to haul around a honking big heavy bag of apples that I still haven’t used up.

Recognize that player in the blue fleece? I got so confused when I saw her out there, given that last year, that was the boy’s fleece, so I kept thinking I was looking at him. But that girl really held her own and did just great. The boy is amazing, how much he’s improved since last year. Poor Adam: Doodles made the advanced beginner’s group, which meets from 8:50 to 9:30 and Pie is in the beginner’s group, which meets from 9:50 to 10:30, so he gets to spend his entire morning at the rink, while I’m off running. That’s what you get for saying, “Oh, hockey and the early, cold hours at the rink don’t bother me.”

And now, now it’s time to be a Mom again. To change the channel and make princess soup for Pie and to bake my next apple creation: Spiced Caramel Apple Upside Down Cake. Perhaps I’ll try to sneak in a bit of noveling today. You never now.

So, yes, I’m still here. At lea
st for the time being.

We played Two Truths and a Lie at dinner tonight. We were having a nice dinner, as the day actually wasn’t bad at all. For my turn:

Me: Today I saw M.’s mom at the YMCA when I went to workout; today I went to Starbucks to have coffee because no one made me any coffee at home; today I returned two SIGG bottles to Whole Foods.
Pie: SIGG bottles.
Adam: M’s mom.
Doodles: Starbucks.

Starbucks was the logical answer, as Adam conveniently left early to go to the gym, but didn’t set up the coffeemaker for me. And I don’t make coffee. Just don’t. Don’t know why. Just don’t.

Me: Doodles is right.
Pie: So you didn’t have coffee at Starbucks?
Me: No.
Pie: Then where did you have your coffee?
Me: Nowhere. I didn’t have any coffee today.
Doodles: Oooh! That’s why you were cranky today!

Adam’s out of town, off on the Left Coast, so here I sit with my wine, my Project Runaway, and my slow-ass laptop. (“Where’s your laptop?” I asked him on the phone. “My work laptop?” “No, your at-home laptop.” “Yeah, my at-home work laptop. It’s right here. With me. In San Francisco.” We don’t say, “A-hole” in our house, so I won’t say it. But I might think it.)

We’ve been having a rocky few weeks here. Pie has been struck with terrible separation anxiety. It came out of nowhere and has hit with a vengeance. “Mommy, don’t go running! Mommy, don’t go to your meeting! Mommy, I don’t care what you’re doing; let me in that bathroom with you right now!” Taking her to school is downright painful. Doodles always started his school years with tears, but his response was “I don’t want to go to school!” In those days, I was still working, so it was easy to say, “Sorry, kiddo, you gotta go. Mommy’s on a deadline.” But now that I’m not working, it’s so hard to resist that little crying face. Although it’s different with Pie. She says, “Mommy, I want to go to school; I just want you to stay with me!” The first few days were really tough for her but now it’s a few minutes of crying, pleading, and grabbing onto me at the drop-off, but then she has a great day.

Today, though, we had a great start to the day. The kids were agreeable, dressing quickly, eating a nice breakfast, cleaning their rooms. A friend drove Pie to school, and she went willingly (and did have tears, but, bonus!, I wasn’t there to see them). Lovely, lovely. I ran errands. Bought more books that no one needs, because I’m a total sucker for books. Got the boy a new lunchbox because at the beginning of the year I told him he couldn’t have a new lunchbox or backpack because the ones from last year were still in good shape and we reuse, reuse, reuse! And then I smelled last year’s lunchbox. Hence the new one he got today. Went to Sephora where they clearly saw “Easy Mark,” which was apparently tattooed on my forehead (note to self: not a good idea to walk into Sephora and say, “Um, I know nothing about skin care or makeup. Can you make the spots on my face go away?”)

After school, Pie had a playdate with a friend (actually a classmate of Doodles’s with whom she gets along really well; my precocious preschool monkey hanging out with the first grade girls). To keep Doodles from interfering, I invited Tab over to play with him.

Tab and Doodles wanted to do some experiments. I was not up for experiments. I let them fill up a bowl of water. They put it on the kitchen counter and I had orders not to touch it. In a few minutes, they came back.

“Look!” Doodles said. “There’s a bubble in it now!”

“Wow!” said Tab. “You know what that means?”

“It means that Camelbocher is coming!”

Yes, Camelbocher. At least that’s what I heard. I have no idea what that means. I went about my own business. Pie and her friend ventured downstairs to join ranks with Doodles and Tab. Periodically they’d check the water, make exclamations, and then run back to the front porch.

So I decided to have some fun. While they were out on the front porch, I pulled out my food coloring. And I dropped in a bit of green. Back they came.

“It’s green!!!” Doodles shouts.

“It’s green?” Tab comes running in. “Do you know what that means?”

“It means Camelbocher is approaching with his armies!” By now Doodles is armed with his sword. “We need to wait!”

“Okay, but if it turns black, it means Voldemort is coming!” Tab says. At least that name I recognize.

And that’s it! No, “How did that water turn green?” No, “Okay, that’s weird.” No, “Mom, what did you do?”

They checked the water a few more times. Still green. So the next they go out, I swap the green water for yellow.

Pie and her friend come in. “How did the water get to be yellow?” Pie asks. I shrug.

Doodle comes back. “It’s yellow! It’s yellow!”

Tab yells, “Voldemort is coming!”

“No!” Doodles yells, “It’s Camelboch and his armies. They’re coming from Florence Street!”

I make the water black next.

Meanwhile, Pie is starting to truly become scared. So I clue her in. “Look, Pie!” I swap the black water for purple water. “See?” She sees. She laughs. And then she is scared again. “What are you scared of?”

“Camelbocher’s army is coming!”

“No, it’s not!”

“It’s true! The water turned purple so that’s what it means!”

Finally after about two hours, Tab finally says, “How did that water change colors?”

Doodles starts with his theories. “There must be chemicals in the air and the water is reacting to them and it changes the color of the water.”

“Maybe,” Tab responds, “our magic spell really worked and it changed the color.”

I’m having a hard time not laughing.

“I think there are chemicals in the bowl,” Doodles says, “and that makes the color change.”

By now I am laughing. Tab sees me. “Maybe your mom did something to the water?” she says suspiciously.

I give her a little nod.

Doodles says, “I think there are things in the bowl that react to the water.”

I pat him on the arm and point to Tab. “What?” he says. I continue to point. “So let me tell you my theory! Chemicals around us are falling into the water and the stuff in the bowl–“

“What about Tab’s theory?”

“But I’m giving my theory!”

“But Tab’s theory is right.”

“How do you know?” he asks.

I walk over and pick up my bag of food coloring. “Because I changed the color.”

“Ohhhhhhh!” he finally says.

That’s my boy. Full of theories. No facts necessary to back them up. I see an MBA in this boy’s future!

And now? Now I finish my wine. I finish my Project Runway. I use my new bajillion dollar face cream. I curl up with the new book I bought for myself today. And prepare to start all over again tomorrow.

Getting ready for bed, Doodles tried to pull down Pie’s underwear.
Pie: Doodles! Stop that!
Doodles: Ha ha! I just saw your butt gutter!

In the timeless tradition of my father, we do Quiz Questions at dinner. Tonight:
Me: What’s the next holiday coming up?
Pie: Yom Kippur!
Me: And what do the grown-ups do on Yom Kippur?
Pie: Um… fashion!

We occasionally give hints. Because sometimes the answers are off. The past few times, I’ve asked…
Me: Who’s the vice president?
Doodles: Bill Clinton!
Me: No!
Pie: George Washington!
Me: No!
I give the hint every time, using the name of a local restaurant chain. So tonight when I asked, they wanted a hint.
Me: Who’s the vice president.
Doodles: Give us a hint!
Me: No! We’ve done this too many times before. You shouldn’t need a hint anymore.
Pie: I know! It’s… Not Your Average Joe Biden!

The end of summer comes later for our family than most–our school system has the arcane rule that school starts the Thursday after Labor Day (and the Monday after Labor Day for kindergartners). So this year, Labor Day was as late as it can possibly be, meaning the first day of school for Doodles was one week ago and Pie didn’t start start till this past Monday. (well, really Tuesday–Monday was a split session day). I actually didn’t mind having the kids home. Yes, they make me insane. But I can (generally) deal. But I hate our school’s system because everyone else is done with school at the year end almost a full month earlier. Our last day of school for the coming year is June 23… if there are no snow days.

At the beginning of the summer, I made a long list with the family of things we were going to do over the summer. I was sad that much of the list didn’t get accomplished. I wanted to go to Portland (Maine, that is). Pie wanted to go to an art museum. Doodles wanted to do science experiments. Adam had listed kayaking and napping in the backyard.

But there was a fair amount on the list that, when I think back, we did achieve. Between Memorial Day and Labor Day we:

**went letterboxing twice–Pie really enjoyed it and the kids designed and I made their own stamps. On our second time doing it (during our camping trip–more on that later), Pie was a real trooper, dealing with missing boxes, a mom who got her lost, mosquitoes, and finally finding the box as it was beginning to get dark out.

**visited a butterfly place. True, it wasn’t the one Pie originally wanted, but we went to the butterfly garden at the Museum of Science and she was pretty happy about that. We made about three or four trips to the museum this summer.

**attended a science program (Doodles) and gymnastics camp (Pie). Doodles spent a week at Club Invention, one of the coolest camps ever. He got to take apart a machine to make a new one (he created the Stopinator 3000, a device for stopping Pie when she’s about to attack him), make up a new superhero, and work with a team to make a land sled. Pie tumbled and trampled and tally-ho’d through two weeks of gymnastics camp.

**saw some tall ships.

**write a novel (me). I’m about 3/4s of the way done. All I need is for school to start to finish.

**turned a boy into a fish (the boy swims! the boy swims!).

**picked raspberries.

**visited Storyland.

**had our annual 4th of July party and rode in the 4th of July bike parade.

**attend a baseball game (the Red Sox for Doodles and Adam; the Pawsocks for the entire family).

**tried out–and loved–camping. We went with Jasmine’s family for a single-night camping trip. Headed out to Harold Parker State Forest, which was perfect. Close, had swimming and fishing and hiking in the campground. Nice playground. Yes, a lot of rain, but I was able to completely overdose on roasted marshmallows, so really, it was fine. The only downer was that the boy’s fishing was cut short. That and the fact that Pie and I were seriously covered from head to foot with mosquito bites. The two of us scratched for two solid weeks.

**swimming time at the Res and at the pools friends invited us to, ran some races (okay, just me, but I ran about six of them), had invention time with boxes and recycled materials, bike riding time in the street, playdates and games and books and general fun.

So that’s it. Time to put summer to a close. The weather has turned distinctly fall like. On a walk this morning, Pie started picking up bright red leaves. I’m preparing for our Rosh Hashanah dinners and we’ve just received our Sukkot kit to build our very own sukkah for the first time.

Onward to fall. L’shana tova!

There’s a loose connection in my boy’s head. He’s just, well, doing this strange little thing. His latest:

Doodles: Pie, look! I’m going to punch myself in the wiener!

At first I found myself scolding, “We don’t punch ourselves in the private parts!”

Now I’ve resigned myself to, “Go to your room until you’re done punching yourself in the p*enis!”

I sent him there about ten minutes ago. He hasn’t emerged. But I do hear coming from his CD player–and he’s singing along–to “Eye of the Tiger.”

Oy.

The boy has been asking for a pet pretty much since he learned to speak. It’s not going to happen. I’d be more than happy to get a cat, but my mother is deathly allergic and Adam himself gets the sneezies around them. I’m not a dog person. Not even a little bit. I could probably handle having a dog in the house, except that we all know I’d be the one taking care of it. And that’s not going to happen. We’ve considered the guinea pig/fish/hamster route, but frankly, it just seems like a lot of work for a pet that’s not going to give much in the way of cuddly fun back. And so, you guessed it, that’s not going to happen.

You can imagine Doodles’s glee when his California friend, T. Rex, sent him Sea Monkeys for his birthday. A pet, at last! One the whole family could be satisfied with!

He eagerly put in packet one and waited 24 hours for the water to purify, asking approximately every 12.9 minutes, “Is it twenty-four hours now?” He put in his packet of Sea Monkeys, and waited for them to hatch. They did so early, which caused a little concern on the boy’s part, but he got over it.

Doodles: Mommy, I need to go talk to Tally.
Me: It’s dinner time. What do you need?
Doodles: I promised I’d tell her when the Sea Monkeys started to hatch!
Me: Okay. You can do it quickly.
Doodles: Can she come see them?
Me: Just for a moment. You need to have dinner.

Doodles runs across the street to retrieve a very excited Tally. As they walk into the house, I overhear them talking…

Doodles: They’re really cool!
Tally: What do they look like?
Doodles: They look like sperm! Only a lot bigger.

Nothing like a kid who tells it like he sees it!

Tonight we have a guest blogger. Readers, I give you Doodles:

i’m not yor sarvint.

(Translation: I’m not your servant.)

Me: So what’s today?
Doodles: Sunday.
Me: Any significance to it?
Doodles: No.
Me: Nothing at all special about today?
Doodles: I got lots of presents.
Me: How come?
Doodles: Because it was my birthday.
Me: Oh, so it was special?
Doodles: Yeah.
Me: How old are you?
Doodles: Six!
Me: That’s pretty old. How did you get to be six?
Doodles: It’s my birthday today, so I am six.
Me: What’s different about six than five?
Doodles: Six you’re going into first grade and five you’re going into kindergarten. Is the interview over?
Me: Not yet. Any other differences?
Doodles: No.
Me: Six is the same as five?
Doodles: Sort of.
Me: What’s your favorite thing to do these days.
Doodles: Be a spy.
Me: Anything else?
Doodles: Nope.
Me: What do you want to be when you grow up?
Doodles: A spy.
Me: And grand pronouncements for the world?
Doodles: What?
Me: Any grand pronouncements?
Doodles: I wish everything was for free.
Me: Why?
Doodles: So people could just get what they want and poor people would be able to buy stuff. Is it done now?
Me: Yes. Happy Birthday, Baby.