Good-bye 2003, Hello 2004
Every year I make New Year's resolutions. I had intended to write this entry and point out that considering how few I keep that there's really not much point of my making new ones. Yet, as I revisit last year's resolutions (which I haven't looked at since last January 1; if I'm going to go to the bother of making these resolutions, then I really should revisit them mid-year to see how I'm doing), I find that I actually managed to keep a surprising amount of them (meaning, more than one of them). True, some came about by accident, but nonetheless, they stuck. Here are the highlights (I've left out some of the more mundane and embarrassing ones, although I did get some of those done, too) and how I did:
- Revise ten pages of my novel a month or do the equivalent in background writing, if needed (character sketches, timelines, research) Yeah, not even close on this one. But it's a good one. Might as well keep this one in for next year.
- Eat more fiber This was an easy one. But, no, didn't do that one either.
- With the exception of the Jazz Fest trip, no alcohol for the year. Ding, ding, ding! I have a winner (more or less)! Of course, being pregnant helped this one considerably, but I can count on one hand the number of drinks I had in 2003, so I count this as a success.
- Visit New York at least three times (it's so darn close and I'm just too lazy for not going. There are too many people there I want to stay in closer touch with). Well, I was 2/3 successful on this one. Which makes me slightly annoyed because Adam and I were going to make an impromptu trip to NY this past weekend, but we had a prior commitment we couldn't get out of, so we decided to wait. Unfortunately, that means the trip will be in 2004 and won't count toward this resolution. Had I just looked at these resolutions a week earlier....
- Read the news section of the Sunday New York Times before the style section. I kept this one up until the third trimester when the hormones made the front section way too depressing. I'm now just starting to read it again.
- Get pregnant. Who knew? Turns out I had fulfilled this one even before this list was written, I just didn't figure it out for a few more days.
Everyone wants to be loved. Especially by the cutest baby ever. But it can be frustrating when you're the only one the cutest baby loves. Don't get me wrong, he still coos and smiles and flirts with Adam. But the Doodlebug has a clear preference for me. When Adam's holding him, the Doodlebug's looking for me. When the Doodlebug starts his regular evening scream (and it is regular now, o joy of joys), Adam can try for over an hour to quiet him. He rocks, he gives him a finger to suck on, he paces, he rubs. Nada. Then, within one minute of transferring the Doodlebug to my arms, silence. As long as I'm holding the Doodlebug, all is quiet (I can't, of course, put him down; that would never work. In fact, even now, once again, I'm bloggin' with the Doodlebug asleep on my lap). I'm torn between feeling happy that my Doodlebug wants me and miserable because no one is able to regularly put him to sleep, which means I'll be more reluctant to leave him. Naps are bad, too: He'll only sleep if we're out of the house (there are only so many errands I can do) or if I lay down with him. You know, in the beginning, I swore I'd never let my child cry it out. Now, I swear, six months to the day, we're 